19idkmybffjil95

not gonna wait around. not gonna hope. not gonna wish. and i hope you aren't expecting me to sit around. wait for you. hope for you. wish for you. i'll miss you. i'll never stop loving you. but it's time to move on, stop wanting you.

I've been told I was perfect once in my life. I've been told I was amazing once in my life. I've been told lots of things. But they've only meant something to me once in my life. I want to hear you say those words again. I want nothing more than to hear them come out of your mouth. I want to hear you say I love you, and mean it. I want you to be mine. But i know you never will be. I know I'm not good (looking) enough for you. I know I'll never have you, and it's tearing me in two.

nothing hurts me more than to have made you cry. it makes me die a little more inside. which is why i can't deal with this. the issue isn't whether or not i love you enough... it's how to get over that and i'm trying, believe me i am but it's not easy. whether you want to listen or not you are absolutely amazing. never forget that and don't tell yourself otherwise. just listen to me when i tell you i love you, and that's the problem.

feel like crying feel like dying feel like shutting the world out and lying lying about my thoughts lying about my feelings lying about my whole life my head is reeling feel like punching feel like kicking feel like shutting out the world and wishing wishing for the sun to come out wishing for better days wishing for happiness whishing for your love to come my way i keep shutting the world out i keep lying i keep wishing but nothings changed.

as i sit here and in the solace of my mind i imagine life without you, i can't. and i don't want to. but i'm preparing myself because i don't know that i can come back. i love you but i'm dying, and i'm not the kind to sit around and let myself be tortured slowly. but i'm trying (if this were paper, there would be a tear mark)

you have my heart. it's right there in front of you. it beats for you. it yearns for you. but you don't want it. i'll never know why but you don't want it. it will always want you. because there is nobody else like you. please see that i'm the one who wants you to love you, and nothing else. i'm the one who needs you. but you don't want my heart. you've already left it behind you. you laugh as it beats for you, as it yearns for you. you don't want it. you will never tell me why. and you don't care that it will always wants you. there's nobody like me. but still you can't see that i'm the one who wants to love you. i'm the one who needs you.

i can't pretend like i'm ok. like it doesn't bother me. like it's all good. like there's nothing wrong. it's not ok. it does bother me. nothing is good. everything is wrong. my heart can only take so much battery

i sit here sobbing, wallowing in my heartbreak. i knew this day would come i just didn't realize it would come quite so fast. i don't know why you don't love me, i just know that you don't and today i've realized you never will, and i cannot handle that fact. i can't grasp it, it makes no sense to me. i've never been so in love, and i never knew love would hurt me so bad. it's like my heart has been pried open by the hands of death and his corrosive touch is slowly seeping throughout my body like a cancer. i don't want to move. i don't want to feel. i don't want to see you, because i can't. every time i do, i fall apart more, and at some poin

you are so incredible. your laugh, your heart, your cute ways, and as a bonus, your beauty make it impossible not to love you. but still i'm watching you slip through my fingers again, and there's nothing i can do about it. still i'm watching as i lose you to romeo and i don't know how much longer i can stand it.